Well, it looks like Aunt Flo has arrived. On the one hand, I'm relieved -- I guess this means my body is hopefully OK and trying to get back to "normal". On the other hand, experiencing menstruation after being pregnant is a harsh reminder that I'm no longer pregnant, in addition to being a very vivid reminder of the phsyical miscarriage process. I've never been fond of having my period {I'm sure many women feel this way} but this time it's much worse than a mere inconvenience. It feels as if I'm physically reliving my experience all over again. Will it always be like this?
And just in case getting my period isn't reminder enough that I no longer have a baby growing inside of me, I was posed a really difficult question to answer during a routing dental cleaning today. "You're not pregnant, are you?!" my dental hygienist exclaimed while she worked. Apparently my gums are puffy, which can be caused by hormones. I silently shook my head and somehow managed to hold in my tears until I left the office.
Nope, I'm not.
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