Friday, June 27, 2014

About Motherhood

A friend asked me the other day how I'm enjoying motherhood.  She wanted to know if I was
exhausted or elated.  This was my response:

It is tiring -- though to be honest the exhaustion didn't hit me until the past 1-2 weeks.  The first 3 weeks I kept thinking to myself "why aren't I more tired?!" especially since the first week I got no sleep.  As in maybe 5 hours in a whole week.  But I wasn't tired!  I guess it was just adrenaline carrying me through the first couple weeks.  Then around the end of week 3 or 4 I started getting tired towards the end of the day.  But to be honest, it's not that bad and you know how I loooooove my sleep.  It's funny how your body copes!

I am elated being her mommy.  I just can't believe how much I love her and how adorable and sweet she is.  I just want to stare at her and cuddle with her all day long.  Even when she's crying and cranky or fussy.... she's just so darn cute.  There are frustrating times for sure.... like when I can't calm her down and it makes me so sad to see her scream from gas pains, or not be able to put her back to sleep in the middle of the night.  But I just adore her and feel so lucky to have her in my life.

There definitely are things I miss about my pre-mommyhood days, most of which is more quality time with Shep.  We were super lucky that he had a 4 week paternity leave to stay home with Emily and me, but to be honest.... those 4 weeks passed by in a flash!  And although we spent almost all day every day of those 4 weeks home together, a lot of the time it felt like I didn't really get to see him.  I'd be in the bedroom feeding Emily and Shep would be in another room, doing laundry or getting dinner ready or watching a movie.  We were both home at the same time but we weren't really spending quality time with one another.  One night, pretty early in, I was standing in the kitchen and just felt a wave come over me.  I started crying and Shep asked what was wrong.  My response was that I missed him.  Yes, he was standing right there, but it was different.  I fully realize that we're a family of three now, so our couple time will definitely be more sparse, but after 5 years of marriage plus 4 years of dating {just the 2 of us!} it's going to take some getting used to.  But on the bright side, it will make the time we do get to share all the more special and enjoyable!  And we have a new person to share our days, time and love with!!


I came across this post this week and wanted to share it, for any other mommies-to-be or new mommies out there.  Although I'm only 1 month in, I can definitely relate to points 2, 3 and 5 made by the author.

Yes, it's hard at times, but it's SOOOO worth it.

1 comment:

  1. Motherhood suits you! It is the hardest and most rewarding job in the world. As much as I wanted another baby, I know that I will miss the time I have with my hubby. Things definitely change after bab y!


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